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[Aug. 17th, 2008|06:50 pm] |
Im a wreck.
How much longer till I can just let go and be happy ? |
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| this is all useless. |
[Jun. 16th, 2008|02:13 pm] |
School's out.
How am I celebrating ?
By going to work, of course.
But it's whatever, I really need the money.
And I want to go shopping with Bre, and get a car,
so I need to save a lot this summer.
I wonder how many days it will take for the fact that
it's finally summer vacation to really set in.
I don't feel as happy as I'd expected to.
Whatever, I've just got to give it some time,
and hopefully everything will turn out as expected.
hopefully. |
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| It's quite alright. |
[Jun. 10th, 2008|08:21 pm] |
4 more days.
One day of class work, 3 days of tests.
The weeks have been going slow, the past few days especially.
Though I know a week from now I'll be saying "wow, look how fast that went."
The past few days have been pretty good.
I guess work hasn't been so bad, either.
I'm realizing I need to get over being lazy when it comes to work, because I'm going to have to spend the rest of my life working, and if I want to end up anywhere nice later down the road, I need this job now.
Plus, I definitely don't mind all the money. I really need a car, and I'd like to get some new summer clothes and save some money for clothes for next fall.
I guess I've just got to get through this week, and all the stress it's giving me.
Because then I've got the next two and a half months to spend with Livvy, Dani, Breanna, and Sheryl.
They're all I really need.
Plus a few others.
This was kind of pointless.
But it usually is.
Im fine with it. |
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| no homo |
[Jun. 8th, 2008|01:07 pm] |
I had such a good time yesterday.
And it's exciting to know that Im going to be having so many more nights like that real soon,
now that school is out in a week.
There are endless possabilities for this summer.
And I don't want to miss out on a single thing.
There was hardly any drama last night, and it was so relaxing.
I need more nights like that.
And cats that look like hitler is my new love.
p.s. got any spare caskets ???
jk. |
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| whatever |
[May. 1st, 2008|09:31 pm] |
I don't have anything to say anymore.
I just can't put the words onto paper.
school needs to hurry up and end,
I need to quit my job,
and I need to find where my compassion and
happiness and just plain love for life went.
But things wont change unless I change them. |
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| This is war. |
[Apr. 3rd, 2008|04:22 pm] |
I had another weakness today.
I lack the motivation to do well.
He started the whole argument.
It was so unnecessairy.
It's all just screwed up my calm today.
Heres to hoping tomorrow will be better... |
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| everybody wake up it's time to get down. |
[Apr. 2nd, 2008|06:42 pm] |
This week hasn't started off so great.
But talking to her made things seem much easier.
Tomorrow is a new day, and Im hoping maybe it will be easier.
I want this so badly. |
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| pawing us who dealt them war and madness |
[Mar. 18th, 2008|11:26 am] |
So today I was feeling well enough to finally go to school.
....for about 10 minutes.
Madame Catoline like, FORCED me to go to the nurse.
hah, whatever.
That just means more time for me to catch up on sleep. |
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| this sucks. |
[Mar. 17th, 2008|05:44 pm] |
Im so sick.
Im missing school, and work.
Steven is just mocking me, claiming that he's "trying to cheer me up."
well all I have to say is fuck him.
The only one who's acted like they cared was Dani.
But this doesn't surprise me in the least bit.
She's always the first or only person to show they care.
I so appreciate everything she does for me, which is more than she could know.
She has such a positive outlook on life, even tho I know she has a lot of hard things going on in her life right now.
Other than this recent setback with everything,
things with school are fine,
my family has been fighting less,
and my friends are still amazing. [especially Dani and Livvy]
Im starting to realize that other than my true friends, I don't need much from anyone else to make me happy.
I need to start doing things on my own.
For my own happiness.
This is MY future, and you've got your own. |
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